A New Enlightened Age
Why? I hear
you ask. You ask again, 'but why?'
I don’t have a clear answer for you, but I know this for
My research studies seem to have brought my view of life and the world
full circle. I did not know when I started my Honours degree in music and emotion,
that I had started to dig into my own sense of self, self-worth, religion,
history or the world artists live in. I merely wanted to know what the benefits
are of atonal textural pieces of music in the emotional lives of listeners.
Every article I have read and every student I have tutored brought me a step
closer to my own enlightenment.
considered the beginning of sound, how and where it ends and if it ends at all.
I have delved into the continuation of sound events and found that the
non-existent silences John Cage spoke of, are in reality textured moments or
events that occur every minute of every day. I came in contact with Buddhism
and had to throw out the academic notions surrounding my study and found the
very fabric that life is built upon. As each sound event occurs or begins, life
begins. As each sound continues to move along the trajectory it was intended for,
life also moves forward and morphs into new avenues and unknown or unheard-of places.
As each sound event comes to an end, life also ends. As life ends, another life
starts, because every minute of every day somewhere in the world a newborn
child comes into being. The child then takes on a life that seeks fulfillment
I had a
close look at texture in each and every sound event and found the very fabric
of my own being. At the same point in time, in the year 2017 I could almost
reach out and touch every sound and metaphorical silence. Now it seems as if I
can taste each sound event, on the tip of my tongue, I feel it underneath my
skin, in my chest, heartbeat and breath. Each and every moment become more
overwhelming than the one before. I began this project at the end of 2015 and
over time it has opened a trap door in my mind and in the process, I have found
myself over the last two and a half years. The experience even more intense and
penetrating than what my Honours study was. This project has become a
metaphorical lifeline that has mapped out the beginning of an enlightened road
of discovery for me. I can see for the first time in my 40 years of life how badly the
world is in need of honesty, kindness, truthful souls and meaningful
relationships. We need artists, poets, healers and carers from all walks of
life to bring a new balance to this broken world.
bringing my voice as a transgender individual
who have a longstanding dialogue
with life and
death to the table. I am here to be a part of a new
age. An age and time where money,
social status, conservatism, neo-liberalism
more, need to crumble in the wake of a social revolution.
I represent my
transgender, LGBTQIA+ and artistic community. I want to urge those around me to
create new space for themselves, fill in your knowledge gaps, do not be left
behind and not know what emotional freedom is. Finding our true purpose are
essential to our survival and for future generations. We need to tear down the
walls that separate us from each other and bring back the kindness, care and
patience our society is crying out for. I will continue my conversation with
life and death for now, because for me it is about understanding, thinking
critically about the world and bringing much needed positive change to my
community. Our time is running out, what are you willing to bring to this age
of new beginnings? What are you willing do for those around you? We need to
find our enlightenment and purpose before it is too late.
© H.S. Botha (2017)
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